I knew it was natural because I could feel new muscles being exercised in my face. It was a bit awkward. Those muscles are a little weak. A small feat for some, but huge for me. I don’t even know why I smiled, as I was simply standing in a grocery line.
I lost my natural smile years ago – probably when I was a kid. I have no idea, really. It’s been gone though – for a very long time. During these past decades I’ve seen counselors, taken medication, read books, studied theology, all in the pursuit of happiness, completeness, fullness. I never found it.
Strange that a natural smile should surface in a grocery store line. Don’t get me wrong, I do experience joy. I love to laugh and have fun. Joy from within, however, has always been allusive for me. I can see it in other people. I want it.
I can attribute my new smile to one thing – a renewed trust in God. A new trust that no matter what happens, God is there. God is for me. He wants what’s best for me.
The smile was an acknowledgement, or perhaps a manifestation, of the joy that is growing inside. That’s just cool!
Thanks for reading this,
~ Ted Olson